media log

inspired by hellomei and goblin heart's library pages

return about

system

backlog

to read

my library has an app where you can reserve books + dvds (there is usually a long queue, but worth it!)

to watch

to play

reading

log of most things i read. includes fanfiction, manga, essays and more!

2025

September

I made a hndr line fic rec page! Check it out ^w^

  • The Trading Game:A Confession

August

  • Black Butler 15
  • Black Butler 14
  • The Guy She Was Interested In Wasn't A Guy At All!
  • Finally got around to getting my own copy of this wonderful yuri-SOOO cute!!

June

  • black butler 9
  • savanaclaw, the manga: 1
  • all about love
  • the bell jar

Blame 100 Line!!!

May

  • Black Butler 8
  • Reading Comics - Scott McCloud

April

  • boots of leather, slippers of gold
  • the disappearing l
  • >:(

    randomly found this while looking at other lesbian history books and i was hoping the title was just an attention grabber. sadly, it's a very reactionary look at how lesbian spaces have changed. i was hoping more for a look at how transmisogyny had been the death kneel to these women only music festivals. there's some good parts (the firsthand accounts) but the authors tone makes it a difficult read.

    read twilight girls and odd lovers instead-i think it gives a much more rounder view and how much infighting lesbians have always been doing lol.

  • gay + lesbian activism in the rep. of ireland
  • vicky angel
  • open book
  • TWST anothology 2
  • my pancreas broke but my life got better
  • girl

  • call the lesbian line
  • didn't hold my attention. i did like how the author fictionalised the logline snippets she got. i think this would go down better with a reader from the uk.

March

  • Ruggie/Leona doujin I bought from Japan
  • yaoi is so healing

  • Black Butler

Feb

what are we watching?

i don't watch a lot of tv or movies much any more due to (gestures at animation industry). but animation holds such a love in my heart, I can never stay away. it's a beautiful medium with expert draftspeople who work on hard. and what i love the most? bad animation.

2025

August

  • Uma Musume: Pretty Derby - Beginning of a New Era
  • I still don't get the horse girls but this is the most anime movie I've watched in ages

May

  • Darren Browne Specials
  • my and my sister have been addicted to these

April

  • The Watermelon Woman
  • Love and Leashes
  • cute korean romcom abt a bdsm office romance!

  • ohshc
  • Minecraft movie
  • I watched the unfinished version.

Jan

  • Aladdin: The Animated Series
  • A must watch to see what you could get away with in the 90s. Fetish fuel and a lack of hypnosis. Sad to see how far animation has fallen.

Games

i play a lot of VNs. i'm trying to branch out, but i have a messed up shoulder so it makes playing a lot of games difficult (looks at mouthwashing's sudden shooter mechanic o)-( )

2025

September

  • Dolorosa
  • Ten Metre Tide

Making my way through some Toxic Yuri Jam games!

August

  • The Hundred Line - Last Defense Academy
  • KINO... PERFECT GAME... I'm hoping to get some blog posts finished about thoughts and feelings... SDU forever!!

April

  • The Hundred Line - Last Defense Academy
  • Check out my blog post about the first run!

  • ChaosHead:Noah
  • charmed by how much of a teenage boy the protag is

March

  • The 100 Line - Last Defense Academy -- Demo
  • of the devil: ep1
  • AMAZING!!! seriously think they're going to be the next big indie hit. love morgan. fran forever.

Feb

  • AA trilogy

Jan

  • EasyXShot

listening

bought myself a cd player off vinted, so fingers crossed i'll make the effort to get off spoitfy!

2025

September

June

I'm seeing Charli XCX this month!!!

May

April

Hard to pick a favourite... Britney is my diva of all divas.

a place to track essays, youtube videos and posts

may

i talk industry

Around the halfway point of this podcast, they speak on "detachment" to your work, and having to battle with the "cog in the machine" realisation as a professional industry-working artist.

I worked 7 years in animation. I am very lucky. I do not have a horror story as bad as some of my peers. But it was killing me, even as I attempted to ignore it. The way animation is structured: they work you to the bone, men get off so painfully easy it's laughable, and there is no loyalty whatsoever. The second they find a slightly talented college student, or someone desperate for work who will work for pennies... The infighting, the egos, the bullying... Yes, all over cartoons.

I figured out I'm a lone wolf, no matter how hard I tried to fit in.

I enjoyed my work, but the detachment from your coworkers and "management" (esp working with US studios) took a toll on my mental health. People barely remember to treat you like a person. The ones who do are a shining light in the industry, and I'm very thankful to call them friends and have learned so much from them.

I feel a little sappy listening to these two, and it's nice to hear these struggles being felt around by so many. A lot of time freelance and creative work has you alone, thinking you're the only one, and you have to fit into this mold. But you don't. It's extremely difficult out there at the moment (and as of writing, I have no idea how the tariffs will effect the animation industry, since most money comes from US production houses and then outsourced to studios in Ire/India/Korea).

april

self-production

bsky post about diy/self-production for merch - i really enjoyed this post. i've been looking into self-production over outsourcing but a lot of the time you have to wade through cope. good breakdown of costs, informative and has good ideas on how to recycle :3