Blaugust 11 - Comiccons and Bodytalk

2025 August 11 // 2025, chats, blaugust

feeling: Panicked!!!!

reading: 100 Line fanfic

playing: The 100 Line -Last Defence Academy-

drinking: Water

How's the head?

I didn't update during the weekend. I was finishing my Noah's Ark submission! Please look forward to the zine in september! ^.^

I have to rework my comic gallery so I'm not posting art here for a bit... I gotta figure out what to do post itchio as well!! AND I WANNA HOST A PICTSQUARE EVENT... My head's been all over the shop recently so planning for things has been pushed to the side... arugh...

Jumping back to Noah's Ark: I'm actually a bit annoyed at myself, I HATE leaving things to the due date. I'm someone who normally prides herself on being prompt and finishing well-before!! Oh well... It happens! I might write up a proper post-mortem in September... It's been so difficult to concentrate lately so I didn't give it my 110%... but I'm still proud of myself for getting it done!! That's what matters!!

I'm planning on hosting Walk in the Sun here to... Maybe via protondrive?? I'm still de-googling myself. It's so much work! I'd love to redo some of the sprites in WITS or just export them as webps... The work is never done!

Over the weekend, I met up with my cousin and her friend before they went to ComicCon. Naturally, the conversation fell to being an Irish weeb. And our suffering...

I don't know how any of us did it. Like you usually went all alone. Teenagers! Going to a con alone because everyone thought you were a proper little psycho for liking cartoons!

Long gone are the days of your laminated book marks and those awful papery stickers. It shocks me how much MONEY teens have now! I had to scrape together a tenner... You either got something to eat, a print, or you were able to get the bus home. Not all three!

And the cosplays... Aliexpress cosplays... They don't know...! The kids have it good!!

Cons have become family things??? Well, here at least. I feel awful when I see parents NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME with kids under 10... this is not a fun family day out... The college ones here have the old-school vibe and are less crowded, and actually have talks and all. Irish cons... we can do it...

The irish yaoi con dream lives on... maybe one day lads...

bodytalk zone

This is Becky typing from the past. You BETTER have CALLED THE DOCTORS. This is being publicly posted for SHAMING REASONS.

body talk and yes i'm still scared of medical professionals

I've been having so many body problems and just not being believed is so @_@ i'm 30!! why can't anyone just believe me when I say I'm in pain??? But if it's vagina related it must be all in your head ♥ why would anyone want to help you and your dumb woman problems ♥

i...hate... going to the doctors... but I must... I'm the only one with my body and I've got to do it... (hyping myself up)

I'll treat myself after... o)-( I've had positive experiences with doctors recently so it's annoying that I just freeze and go into panic mode or just end up feeling so stupid that I leave with nothing solved. At least I have my list of problems with me o)-( Even typing this has me going "oh my god,,,, everyone's going to think you're an idiot woman who can't even do the basic thing of calling a doctor I bet you're faking it...oh my god you're a loser why are you panicking...." it's giving me hives it's OKAY. I'LL BE OKAY!!!

I'm always in awe of people who can just... go to the doctors... You can do that? You can just go...? And it's okay the world doesn't end?? My life is a comedy so when I try, I ring them up and the receptionist tells me I don't exist. And then I don't try again for a year.

me: my name is Becky lastname

receptionist: oh Becky lastname. your birthday is y/y/yyyy right?

me: no that's not mine. that's my sister's birthday. maybe you mixed up our files?

receptionist: it says your birthday is y/y/yyyy

me: that's not my birthday. I just said it's my sisters.

receptionist: oh so you're sister surname?

me: NO.

receptionist: hm. are you sure?

I'm white knuckling it bc I tend to spiral hard after dealing the the medical system... I'll be okay... I have to be okay... okay thanks for reading my mini crash out LOL I BETTER HAVE CALLED.. BECKY!!! DID YOU CALL???

Okay if I did call the doctors I'm allowed to draw the cringiest het agegap... my reward... I love agegaps when its edgy dark n evil BUT when it's super fluffy...?!? SO... GOOD!! Sorry everyone I'm actually wholesome... Take away my evilbad liker card...

FUTURE BECKY REPORT: I called the doctors and it went normally.

Let's be brave... we can do it...!! From me to you, let's stand up for ourselves!!

Listening to...

--xoxo becky